i am feeling down to the extreme nowadays and i do not know why.
as times pass by, i really do have a negative thinking on certain things such as: schoolmates, studies, etc
perhaps, i am quite tired of things i have been doing?

Sometimes, i really wish that there will be someone who will be there to lend me the shoulder for me to lean on and tell me everything is ok no matter what has happen. I have been tired of being 'strong' in front of people. Fake smiles has apparently came out nowadays. I have not been in this way for a very very very long time til nowadays. Emotionally unstable as well, is it a hint given from the god that i should really give up?

I know that there definitely be boundaries along the way in life, but recently, there are really a lot of boundaries along the way, til i started to question myself every single days on how to conquer each boundaries that i have been through.


what should i do? i really do nto know. really. i really need someone's advices but i do not know how to seek people for advices nowadays. Sometimes i would post something on twitter and awaiting that there will be someone msging me if i m ok, but there wasnt any texts at all. I am tired of being automatically telling anyone what have i experiencing through right now, 


Why did i offer pp a pair of lending ear and yet pp do not even offer me any? Why?

i m tired, quite tired of my poly life...
i wanted my last year freedom..
i dislike being controlled by schedule
i dislike the moment whereby i really got to think of when is the next date due for the nxt projects
i dislike the fact that i actually have so little time to do what i really wish to do.
i dislike knowing when is the next exam

ok, i think i better stop saying dislike as there are more than 100 dislikes if i really write it out...

anw, it has been a freaking long time since i last met the uptrend girls.. misses u pp so much...
hope to meet u girls soon~ :)

HEY PEEPS!

i have just changed the blogskin as the previous blogskin background was removed by the creditors. :/
well, i guess this blogskin is quite ok but.... i do not know how to edit the song part. I need help in that area. Do drop me a message in the chatbox if u know how to edit that song playlist or whatever it is called. :0

OKAY. i am soooo looking forward to holiday and i do not know why. Maybe the reason behind it was because i was tired of some of the things that i do not want to mention here, long journey travelled daily and the tonnes of projects awaiting always. *SIGH*

Oh Yeah, i had make some plans in this upcoming holiday and here is the plan:
12 June- go cycling with friends in ECP
13- 15June- go malaysia (maybe)
21- 22June- Chalet
I think i will be available in the rest of the days unless i got to go n do projects with friends? O.o
I would want to spend this holiday well as the nxt holi i got to go for 3 weeks attachment out of the 4 weeks. hhmm.. :/

Let me end off with this: 59 minutes of circus afro

I wonder who cn listen to the whole of 59mins as i did it successfully without pausing in between. :D

Hey readers!
do u all miss my blog? oh well, i guess there is no one reading or maybe there is someone reading but i might nt knw who the person is.
So where shall i start with?
hhmm. maybe i should start with my life (new life).
Upon stepping to poly, i then realise how tiring it is to wake up 2h earlier and then come back home with projects to do. This process will probably goes on and on and on til 3 years later. I might get tired in times as i am not used of this life as u guys knw i have been having so called a year break as i re-take my o level, then out of sudden, I can't expect myself to adjust to this life i m having in a short time. O.o Anyway, i realised that i have really changed after going poly. I do not knw if u guys notice the changes on me anot but i really do notice it and it is verr clear. Firstly, my temper has become more and more agitated. Next, i have been more and more talkative when chatting with my cousins but not with friends (i do not knw why either). lastly, i get very moody very easily. I do think that these changes really isn't the real me at all. I really wish i can end off all these moodiness, quietness, and hot-temper like a seriously. I wanted to be a real me. this is what i want to request but it seems to be harder to achieve it. :(
Maybe, i should really do something to it during the 2 weeks holidays which is approaching soon (in a week time) ! :D And oh yeah.  my aunt actually had ask me n my sis to go for a cousin's chalet, hope i will be able to go. hehe :D

here is a quotation before i end off this post:
The secret of success in life is for a man to be ready for his opportunity when it comes.
Earl of Beaconsfield

HIHI PPPPEEEEOOOOPPPPLLLLEEEE!!!!! ^^Y

It has been a while since i have update this blog.. (almost forget about this blog :P). well, i shall update the latest  place that i have visited instead of a long post from last week til yesterday. O.O
Yesterday finally had a meetup with the Uptrend girls!!! It has been a few months since we last met up! :D
I had a great day spending with them in ZOO! <3 Initially, i thought it will probably rain but end up, the weather is scotching hot! Overall, the trip was fun! Hoping to meet you girls up asap again! :D



It has been a very long time since i have been to the art museum. I remembered the last time i went to the art musuem was at the age of 9? On monday, which was 2 days ago, shanthini and i went there and we really do think that some of the artists were really mad..... I remembered there was one piece of art:'
guess what is it made up of?
ans: thousands of small pictures of slaughtering of animals. It really disgusted me upon reading the descriptive. Those red colour that you have seen in the picture were actually small picture of blood. *YUKS!*

There were a lot more, but i should just upload some of the pictures instead of describing it. :O

















HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
it has been awhile since i last post... and the reason of me not posting is because i am super super lazy. :P
I had been having runny nose, cough, sore throat and fever in the past few days and i was lucky that i am recovering right now.!

i do not know why but i am really looking forward to tomorrow, chu qi, which is also known as 'ren ri'. Partly was because i will be doing lau yu sheng with all my relatives.. HAHAS! But, what am i looking forward to apart from lau yu sheng? hhhhmmm..??